Its been twelve months since I was hurled aboard that runaway cancer train. In a lot of ways I am so glad this wretched year is at an end. But in others, I wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
That must sound strange.
Of course I wish that I hadn't lost my breast and my hair. I certainly would have preferred not to have endured the hell that is chemo and radiation. But had I not gone through it all, I wouldn't have experienced the immense avalanche of kindness and love that came with it.
Because of my cancer, I have grown into a person whom I like a great deal more than the me of twelve months ago. Because of my cancer I now look at life from a different perspective, from a place of gratitude. Because of my cancer I have learnt that I am capable of enduring so much more than I ever thought possible and have developed a new found confidence, fear simply doesn't have the same hold over me the way it used to.
And for that, I am glad.
And so, fare thee well 2013. Thank you for the good and precious moments but don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out!
I'm welcoming 2014 with all its possibilities and the hope that a fresh year brings. My New Years Resolution is to seek JOY in the every day.
My cancer journey isn't over, I still have another mastectomy to get through in the first half of the year, but its a small price to pay to reduce the risk of breast cancer returning. Besides, I look at it as a chance to even up again.
We are still hoping to somehow buy that house we fell in love with, which, despite being a huge, long term reno project, gives me a great thrill. It would be completely amazing if we could pull it off, but if it doesn't come through we will keep looking. What is meant to be is meant to be. I'm handing it over to the Universe.
I want to thank each and every one of you for your incredible support and encouragement this year. Thank you for all of your comments and emails, thank you for sharing this blog with others and thank you most of all for sharing this year with me.
I wish you all a beautiful New Year's Eve and may Twenty Fourteen be a year of good health and great love. See you on the flipside!
xx Em
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Amazing! And congratulations! May 2014 be filled with many good things for you. Happy new year. Greer xx
ReplyDeleteThanks Greer, may 2014 be a beautiful year for you and your girls. xx
DeleteOh Em, your posts always make me smile and give me goosebumps. I know I keep harping on about it but you truly are an incredible inspiration to all mothers out there!!
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to seeing what 2014 has in store for you and I can not wait to read all about it!
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Thanks Shan, can't wait to give you a big squeeze in Feb xxx
DeleteEm, I can't wait to see the wonderful things that 2014 will bring for you. Oh the pleasure you will have watching and enjoying your precious little boys (big boys I should say!!) and yes, I too will enjoy looking at your photos of them. You certainly have a way of capturing their gorgeousness!! I pray that 2014 will be a year for you to grow stronger and that health will be your portion. Thank you for your friendliness and your generosity to me these past few months. Keep on keeping strong. Gaye
ReplyDeleteThanks Gaye, hopefully we'll get to meet in person when I visit the coast this year. Wishing you a wonderful 2014. Xx
DeleteI am excited to be a part of your blog life as a reader :) I'll be here reading through it all - happy, exciting, sad, and thrilling moments that 2014 will bring to you Em. You're a tough cookie, with amazing talent, and lets not forget taste in just about everything! All the best to you and the whole family - champagne cheers to all the adults, and snuggles for the boys :)
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So immensely glad to be sharing it with you Lovely xxx
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